When I was a little girl, I was terrified of what was, or rather could be, behind the shower curtain. Silly, maybe, but my imagination had plenty of scenarios that didn’t end well with what might be found behind there. It was dark, covered, and a place that plenty could be hiding. My go to when I needed to be in the bathroom was to tiptoe to the edge of the shower curtain, grasp it on the far end, and as I ran as fast as possible out of there, I’d open the curtain too. I’d run out, then turn and wait from the down the hall to see if anything came for me, and if not, all was safe.
A couple of months ago, I was standing in my bathroom getting ready for the day and a dear friend texted me saying that as they had prayed for me that morning, they sensed the words, “Let the light of Christ shine. Don’t be afraid, I am with you wherever you go.” My heart was overwhelmed simultaneously with thankfulness and grief, and it spilled over and out of my eyes. That morning had been spent asking lots of questions, with feelings of confusion and seemingly distance from the Lord. As the tears fell, I prayed asking the Lord to share with me what He wanted me to know. Later that night, standing in our front yard, my attention and eye was caught to look at how the sunset was hitting the grass. Everywhere the light hit was lit up. I sensed Him whisper, “Let the light in.”
I wasn’t sure what it all meant, but a couple of weeks later during an evening of prayer and reflection, Holy Spirit reminded me of a sermon our pastor had preached awhile back. He used an illustration about how when a closet light is on, the light shines out into the darkness of the room, but the darkness cannot come into the light of the closet. Light overcomes darkness. Just like the little girl in me who was so afraid of what was behind the shower curtain, the Lord revealed that grown-up me was afraid of the dark places in my heart, and therefore, I was not meeting Jesus there or giving Him the things held there.
Have you ever wanted to keep something hidden from Jesus because it just felt so big, dark, confusing, or scary? Maybe without realizing it?
Often times in prayer ministry, when we have a hard or dark memory come up, we might not want Jesus to be there with us, or we could think He might not want to be there. It can seem better sometimes to keep these hard places in our hearts hidden, in the dark, or even continue to fear these memories.
Thankfully the scriptures remind us of His character, and how He acts on our behalf.
–in Him (Jesus) was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it. -John 1:4-5
-The LORD is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid? -Psalm 27:1
-and provide for those who grieve in Zion—to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. -Isaiah 61:3
–Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you. -Jeremiah 32:17
These precious words and truths help us remember that Jesus is so much bigger than whatever may be in the dark parts of our hearts, or behind “the curtain” in our memories, per say. He longs to meet us, deal with whatever may be there, and help us. He knows exactly what we need today, what we needed when we were little, and every single place in between. His timing is perfect.
Maybe the invitation today, is to invite Him to meet you in the dark, confusing, “behind the curtain” places in your heart? To let the “little you” meet with Him to see how good and trustworthy and big He really is and let Him help bring understanding. To hand over the hard and scary and receive back what He has for you. To ask Him the questions you have and see that He really was there with you, just like He is today. (Matthew 28:20)
In one of the greatest of Jesus’ sermons, He tells His disciples (also you and me), “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden. Nor do people light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a stand, and it gives light to all in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.” -Matthew 5:14-15
Brother or sister, His light is in you. No darkness can overcome it. Oh, how we might shine for Him!
If you feel led, please pray with me:
Heavenly Father, thank you that you are good and true.
Would you bring to mind any places where I need to let Christ’s light in?
Jesus would you meet me there, and help me?
Would you help me trust you more, and remember you’re always with me?
Would you help me shine your light for all the earth to see?
All that you may be glorified!! All honor and praise to you.
In Jesus name, by Holy Spirit’s power. Amen!
Our prayer ministry team delights to meet with folks to pray and work with Jesus through these types of places. We’d love to seek Him alongside you, if you desire! Contact us to schedule a prayer ministry appointment anytime.